The journal.....ok.
In the class we all had to keep a journal in where we had to write an entry for ten minutes each, five times a week until we had at least 40 entries. Now I have to write a reflection about it.
Well, to be honest, it was good at the beginning but then it just got annoying. I couldnt care any less about writing in a journal to express myself, I do it daily without it. If its to sort out my thoughts, you'd best believe that I do it in my mind better, its scary to write my ouwn thoughts, not because i don't want to read 'em, I can't care any less about it, it's because my thoughts are too messed up to leave any proof....... Now I'm just bull you.
Sincerely speaking now, I did like it at the begining but then it was too much of a hasse for me to care about it, I did all my entries during the weekend, took one hour off my day with 'em. Now, I have to make this short because im gonna present this in 3 minutes. So, how about I talk about this entry that....bla bla bla, I wont mention any, none of 'em are note worthy, there was the poem, but I already posted it so whatever you wish me to tell you I can't really cooperate.
Well, I will atleast try to explain why it was annoying, in a few words......obligation and responsibility. I know I can't really whine about it, but if the reason for me to keep a journal is to make it an enjoyable experience, then you cant really tell me to do it, you have to persuade me, I don't lie feeling obligated, I like feeling moved to do it. Thank you.
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So after I posted this, I found out about these questions:
1. What changes have you noticed in your writing? (style, vocabulary, creativity and so on.)
-I have noticed nothing changed in my writing. What I HAVE noticed is that my HANDwriting is horrible! Oh my lawd! What's worse is that I wasn't allowed to stop writing, nor was I allowed to cross out or make markings.
2. How successful were you in following the first thoughts activity? For example: Which rules did you find difficult or easy? Explain.
-WELL, I already talked about this earlier but I'll mention what happened the first time. I did not know what the hell to write about, so I had to jot down my thoughts and it was so annoying (still think it is).
3. Select one activity (one journal) and explain your process.
-I already talked about this in the earlier post.
4. What have you learned about yourself as a writer?
-About myself as a writer?
Nothing....well I did learn that I don't need the journal to express myself, talk to myself, or anything that has to do with sorting out ideas. Specially with the rules set in this journal. I have a lot of time to think about everything, I even make my schedules in my mind each day. I can do all that in my mind, thus I don't need to write it and leave proof about what I am thinking of.
Hello partner! I really feel you in the part that you said you express yourself daily and that is why you can find it useless to write a journal. For me it works better as a reminder of things that happened and that I will probably forget them in a while. Anyways, you can actually enjoy having a journal if you find the right purpose of it.
ResponderEliminarI can't shake this metaphor off; I get the feeling that you have a needle piercing your skin, and it has blocked a channel that leads to growing with your thoughts. What I mean by this is that, maybe, if you were to be serious about writing on a journal those scary thoughts might shine a light on the source . My advise would be to write about how you feel towards and assignment and criticize why you dislike it. Give words a chance to free yourself from what you dislike, even if words is what you dislike.
ResponderEliminarI understand why you say that you didn't like being told to do it, when to do it or how to do it. But sometimes, as human beings, we need a little push to do things and do them right. Maybe, if you look back to it, you may see who you are and how you react to certain situations. I also believe, you won't learn much of yourself as a writer in this type of assignment, but you can learn a lot about yourself. I believe that the fact that the journal was an obligation made you hold back some of your feelings, meaning you didn't feel comfortable doing so.
ResponderEliminarI can read that you did not like the assignment that much. It was a good experience, a little tedious at first, but after some entries I found that it was an interesting way of expressing myself.
ResponderEliminarHello Angel! While I do agree that the experience was a bit tedious, I think that if you go in with a closed mindset of what the experience will be that's exactly what you will get out of it.
ResponderEliminar~~~Paula